Ex wedding Dream: Heavy gift and muted Voice

"i was trying to find a seat at this huge outdoor wedding reception set up in the backyard of a house i've never seen before, carrying this heavy wrapped box that i was supposed to give to someone. all the tables were decorated with tiny glowing candles and white flowers, but the grass was super muddy and ruined my shoes. then i looked up toward the front alter area and saw my ex standing there in a really sharp charcoal suit, smiling and laughing with a girl in a lace dress who was facing away from me. i had this sudden, heavy realization that they had just finished saying their vows and it was all official. my stomach felt completely hollow. nobody at the tables was paying attention to me, but i couldn't move or put the box down. then the scene just snapped and i was standing right next to their head table while everyone was making a toast. he turned around and looked right at me with this polite, distant smile, like i was just an old acquaintance he barely remembered inviting. i tried to say congratulations or ask him why he didn't tell me, but my voice felt muted, like trying to talk underwater. i just stood there clutching that stupid gift box while everyone around me started clapping, feeling this crushing weight in my chest knowing that his life was moving on completely without me."